debbieblakley

Today I am feeling so low,well if I am honest its been going on for weeks now. I can't seem to pull myself out of this at the moment. I just miss Joel so much.
I wrote this poem last year,its on Joels site, when I kept having people telling me I should be 'getting over'this.I hoped they might take note of some of the things I was trying to explain to them. No one knows what this is like apart from all of us who have been down this path.
I also get lots of comments such as oh well ...

Today David and I along with Joshua,Jacob and Ben went to a small theme park here in the uk. We were given tickets by cherubs uk who had been lucky enough to recieve them as part of the theme park's charity weekend. We had a lovely day and towards the end I went to buy Joel a new windmill from the gift shop.Joel was the reson we were there as it was because of him we belong to cherubs. While I was in the shop,the music changed and started playing Joels song 'you'll be in my heart' which we had played ...

We buried Dick on saturday,a nice spot under a tree in the garden. It was sad to see the children so upset and it puts me off getting another guinea pig but the remaining one may get lonely and the farm have said we can have another.So tomorrow we are going to choose another.

My parents are on a month long cruise to the usa. It was a gift to themselves on celebrating their golden wedding. I hope they have a fantastic time.
Debbiexxxxxx