JadeHunt

I am not very technologically savy, so I cannot figure out to delete a blog entry that hurt a very good friend of mine. I wrote the blog in a fit of sadness, devastation and fear, never imagining that this friend would read it. I joined this site to connect to families who know exactly how my husband and I feel. This site has been a huge blessing and the women I have met and connected with all hold a very special place in my heart! I never expected others to read it. The truth is, it is impossible ...

My Dearest, Liam,

Yesterday Momma got a text message from one of her very best friends, Amber. (Your big brother calls her Ammy. What a silly goose he is! ) She told me that she had her little baby. It was a girl, named Olive Louise Aurilio. Olive's Daddy is very Italian, so her name is perfect! I saw a picture of her today. She's gorgeous, with her head full of dark brown hair and dark eyes. She looks just like her Mommy!

When Amber texted me yesterday I was amazed ...

Hello, My Perfect Peanut,

Liam, Momma is reaching for you again today! One of Momma's very best friend's had her baby today. I do not know yet what she had, his or her name, or if she and Baby are healthy, but I am assuming they are. Although I am so happy for her, I can feel myself crumbling and choking up. Moments like this pose the ever present question: Why weren't you healthy? Why did this happen to you.. to us as a family? It seems like everybody is having healthy babies all ...

My Dearest, Most Perfect Angel, Liam,

I had a dream last night. I dreamt that I was holding you in my arms and you were staring up at me, studying my face. I woke up to your big brother tossing in his sleep. I look at his face and I once again realized how much you boys are alike. I am amazed at how identical you are!

I have so many questions and I am desparately reaching for any answer I can find. I miss you more than words could ever express! It hurts my heart to ...

My Dear Liam,

Mama needs your strength right now! A good friend of Mama and Daddy's just had her baby, a boy named Austin. Your Auntie Whit sent me a picture, although I never wanted one. I know she wasn't trying to upset me, but now I sit here, a complete hysterical wreck, at my desk. I'm just devastated... I don't mean to sound like an awful friend, but it's just not fair! I'm devastated, bitter, upset and more sad than I knew I could ever be. If I can't have you, I feel like nobody ...