juliedobbs

Bryson,

I am so thankful for tiny little moments spent with you. You woke up today and looked right at me. Your eyes were wide open and you were as precious as can be. You seemed calm and i was cleaning your drool and making sure that your neck was dry. You are such a little drooler. I started talking to you and thought to sing Christmas carols to you. so, I started singing and your tiny eyeballs got heavy. They started to close and you fell back to sleep. The profusionist that was ...

Today, I walked into the room late. It was 11 a.m. and I was hurrying to get there. I woke up this a.m. at 5 a.m. and had a splitting headache. The kind that my jaw ached and neck muscles ached and head was pounding every possible which way. I needed something to relieve it so I grabbed my Excedrin Extra Strength and went back to bed. Well, I woke up at 9 a.m. and was feeling very strange. I was groggy and felt drugged. I could sleep the whole day. Forcing myself to get up and start the day, I looked ...

It is late and I am so tired but I had to update everyone and write down my thoughts before I laid down.
Last night was probably the most scariest day of my life. I never thought that I would have to walk this path and now it is here. His oxygen dropped to 50%. They could not oxygenate him. He was starting to look pale, blue/gray and was just laying there. Everything they tried was not working and the doctors started flowing in the room. I stayed back and patiently watched as the doctors ...

I am going to try to blog in the midst of all my spare time, (yeah right). lol!
I know i have so many people praying for my little cherub and I don't doubt that God has a plan for him, but in spite of all of the prayers and the miracle that took place last night, today he has had to go on ECMO.
The vent and the occilator was just not working. His numbers were heading down into the 60's and was refusing to go up even at 100% oxygen level. They couldn't do more than that. I knew it ...

The days are slowly passing. It feels like it has been 2 months and yet it has only been like a week. 11 days to be exact. I am resting more and not spending hours upon hours at your bedside yet when I wake up in the a.m. I feel like I am not complete until I can see you.
The doctors don't think you even know I am here but when you are awake you look right at me. You are wide awake and I wish I could hold you. When that time comes it will be one of the happiest moments in my life, next to ...