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Im 34 weeks, and im getting more and more........
scared, excited, overwhelmed everything you can imagine!

yet im ready to meet my baby girl!
I wanna see her already, hold her, hear her cry!
I know that wont happen right away but each day makes it closer!
Even thought i have to be in seattle to be induced & deliver.
Im scared its in a city I dont know, a city i dont have family && friends, i dont want to ever leave her in that city ...

so now im 30 weeks and a few day,
everyday i keep her inside is a gift
we have a ultrasound every week that keeps me busy,
this week coming up i have one appiontments everyday starting
from 8am till they let me go, im going to be tierd!
but its worth it, they get there info anf i get tons of u/s pics,
even though its normal now that i dont look at the tv no more i just take a quick nap

everything is great so far,
her liver never ...

I got the tote bag! Thanks everyone, I wasent expecting it. I wrote in the diary already I plan on giving it to my daughter when she's older. So she can read what I thought at this hard time, read my prayers I've said for her. Yet regarding all this, I'm still very sad. Sad enough to cry for no reason, to cry for the simplest comment made, for the most common song. Little things that seem so meaningless, get to me. I'm always hopeful for the best outcome and it will be the. We found a name well ...

Since my last post Ive had many test done from amniocintisis(spellcheck),MRI, Ultrasounds, blood work! Everything under the sun, yet all woth it. The most painfull one was the amnio, first im super scared of needle and looking at blood! The doctor pretty much coud see i was nervous that he sugarcoated the process to me, his words were no pain lil poke and all done you wont feel a thing!!! i just asked to not be showed the needle so he didnt. once they pulled it out my moms jaw dropped and i knew ...

When i was told my baby had CDH, i was speechless! I had a million and one questions just couldnt put them in words. I couldnt do anything let alone talk back to the doctor while he asked questions, I just knew nothing anyone says could make me feel any better, nothing anyone did could make me feel less sad. They knew silence was the best way they can help me. So when i drove myself home I couldnt speak to my babys father we were both hearthbroken. That was the only time he never tried to make me ...