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I haven't posted in quite a while. Ethan enjoyed preschool and had a little graduation ceremony in May. He has had a great summer. We haven't done all we wanted to as I have had vestibular neuronitis. It starts out with an intense vertigo; when that stops your balance is affected and everything appears to shake (because there is some nystagmus in the eyes), you feel like a magnet is pulling you in different directions and there is a floaty feeling in your head. It is very hard to explain. But, ...
I'm not saying that it's all better because it's not. I don't think I will ever be completely over her death, I just think that it's starting to scar. I don't find myself crying as often. I have memories that are fond of her. I remember her wiggling in my tummy. I remember her getting all crazy when I drank orange juice. The way she bonded with my son even before she was outside of my body. I just got her medical charts back and I'm puzzled. When the doctor came into my room that night she ...