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Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday! I ended up at the hospital on Tuesday night, come to find out I was severely dehydrated, and that is what was causing my contractions and heartburn. I got to the L & D they stuck me about 11 times trying to get an IV. They have always had a problem gettting IVs on me. So after about the 11th stick they stopped trying and called an anethesioloist (s?). He got there really quickly, ended up using my exterior juglar vein. I was terrified I have never that I ...

I guess I ended at the nurse from Hallafax....I won't use the word I have especially saved for her. I believe all of this took place on September 16th and 17th. The next 17 days of my life I must say I do not really remember. There were so many drugs in my system I couldn't function. They had me on a demerol pump 25 mg every 15 minutes, which made me itch so there is benedryl IV 25mg every 6 hours, the combo made me really sick to my empty stomach alot so they gave me Phenergan IV 25 mg every 4-6 ...

[color=black:c1fefbb70b]I really need to try to keep up here better!

It's been a zoo around here lately. Work is so busy right now. CHERUBS events are taking up every other waking moment lately. Evenings and weekends are spent either at the boy's baseball games or printing up flyers, meeting with volunteers or vendors, or returning phone calls and e-mails.

This week has been particularly busy. Friday, I took off of work and spent all day getting the ABC licenses. ...

Well I am proud I made it to 2002 yesterday! In the first part of 2003 I don't really remember the dates I began to have eating issues it was hurt me so bad to eat ANYTHING! So they put me in the hospital in the beginning of that year in Memphis TN where I had found my new GI doctor, Dr. Lazar, her husband was te one who did my ear surgeries. I was realeased with pills to help me not hurt and be able to eat. But it just did not seem to do what I needed! So, on over into the year I started my Junior ...

It's been awhile since I last wrote in my blog. I have been struggling lately with the guilt of moving on. It feels as though I am leaving her in the past. How do you show your love to those who have passed? I am struggling with that right now. I love her soooo much and for some crazy reason feel like if I move on I am not showing her that love.
My mind is a battle field between the feelings I have and what I know. I know that moving on shows that I care and is healthy, but moving on makes ...