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Well, after much frusteration I got a few pictures up. Wow was I getting extremely frusterated.
It has been a long week w/ all the days off the kids have had & they are getting cabin fever. I hope this is NOT a sign of the winter we are about to have.
Hoping for a restful week-end before our trip to the ped. surgeon on Monday.

Off 2 sleep!! :)

I have been keeping very busy. Today after work I decided I needed a day of nothing so I came home and slept, and of course now I am up and probably won't be able to go back to sleep. O well.

I have been selling truffles for a mini fundraiser for Cherubs, and it has done a whole lot better than I ever expected. I estimate that I have already sold over 170 boxes and continue to get requests and orders. So in between working and other stuff you can find me in my mini kitchen playing ...

I'm so glad this week is about over. It's been kind of weird. Weird in the sense that there are a lot of bad vibes floating through the air. I think Wednesday was the worst of all.

I thought I was doing a good thing by putting Adam in his crib while I folded laundry. Aaron happened to be in Adam's room playing when I hear this loud scream for me. I ran as fast as I could into Adam's room to find him crying and laying on the FLOOR! Adam had found a toy in his crib to stand on ...

Today was so strange. I woke up this morning @ 0500 as usual. My door was open allowing the very cool crisp fall air in. Out of nowhere I suddenly felt so different. All day I could not shake the feeling of wanting to crawl out of my skin. I kept telling myself oh it must be there are 5 extra family members in my house and I feel crowded, or maybe work is just catching up to me. Then as I sat on my deck this afternoon a gust of wind blew and that same old familiar feeling finally made sense. ...

Today I am feeling so low,well if I am honest its been going on for weeks now. I can't seem to pull myself out of this at the moment. I just miss Joel so much.
I wrote this poem last year,its on Joels site, when I kept having people telling me I should be 'getting over'this.I hoped they might take note of some of the things I was trying to explain to them. No one knows what this is like apart from all of us who have been down this path.
I also get lots of comments such as oh well ...