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  1. The Flood Has Begun......

    I lost my sweet girl nearly 11 weeks ago and the pain and sorrow seem to intensify. I feel like flood gates of emotion have opened. I find that previously I was trying to just keep things in check and "manage" myself and my grief. What I am learning is to simply let myself "be" and feel what I feel when I feel it. It is so very hard as I, probably like many of you, am so tired of feeling such deep sorrow and sadness. I find anger in it as I don't think it is the right way ...
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  2. Post Holiday Blues

    Like many I fear I simply "survived" Christmas this year. Between the loss of our sweet baby girl and family strife, it was nothing short of disaster. I had family visiting from Indiana (17 hours away) and I think emotions were high for all of us. I know they feel the loss too but I was also hoping for a bit of a "hall pass" when it came to lack of patience by both my husband and myself. It didn't work out that way. It was no way to honor Christ's birth or my daughter. ...
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  3. Holidays.....and the Heart

    Wow! The last few days have been so very hard. We are four weeks in to grieving for our sweet angel girl Ari and it does not seem to get any easier. I read so much on this site and know there are others grieving as we are. I just breaks my heart even more. I went to the cemetary today to see my little lady and be close to her. I find it more comfortable to talk to her when I am driving and than sitting at a place where only her "shell" resides. I miss her so very much. I miss all ...
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  4. Settling in to our loss

    We lost our precious baby girl just 2 1/2 weeks ago on October 25th. It was the saddest day I have ever experienced. She was absolutely beautiful and perfect on the outside. I tell myself that is why God took her after only 7 hours with us. While our doctors told us this was a possibility due to her CDH, we never imagined it would or could happen in the year 2012 as we had so much expertise and technology on our side. At birth it was discovered she virutally had no lung tissue on her left side ...
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