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  1. Do I stay or do I go?

    I just do not know what to do. I am in the Army and I asked my commander about how they would be there for me if my baby needs to stay in the hospital for a while. He then told me that when my maternity leave ( which is about 6 to 8 weeks)is up I will be right back to work. I can not imagine not being at the hospital with my baby. I just do not know what to do. Does anyone have any suggestions?
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  2. 4 am

    Well it is 4 am and I have 2 1/2 more hours that I could be sleeping, but nope I am "wide awake". Grrrr, this is what makes the third trimester so difficult-and I am barely in it! I have a very active baby kicking like crazy inside of me, my leg won't stop cramping, I can't get comfortable, my back aches, and I am having the strangest dreams! So here I am in the wee hours of the morning trying to stay busy. Well, I guess its my bodies way of getting me ready for the sleepless nights ...
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  3. I am so worried

    I hate not knowing I am so ready to hold him to see him to know he is okay. I hate waiting to find out how he will be. I just do not think I can take this. I know I might sound like a big baby right know and that is fine by me. I just hate this feeling. I just keep thinking what did I do wrong.I am only 24 weeks and I am already ready for him to be here. I just hate that I can not enjoy being pregnant. I just hate this all together I can not stop praying I acutally caught myself closing my eyes ...
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  4. Cookie Monster and Shoe Burglar

    It's been a couple weeks since I've posted and oh, how my Adam has changed over the that time. I recall posting some time ago about how I had to wonder what the age of 15 months was going to bring. Oh it's here and in full throttle.

    There's no doubt about it, I've got myself a little smartie! I'm amazed at the problem solving skills this kid has for his age. For example, we keep a stool in our kitchen, mainly for Aaron to use. Adam has mastered using the stool and yesterday ...
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  5. I QUIT

    Thanksgiving came and went, it was a "good" day but was very difficult thinking about how Gabe was missing from everything. We went to dinner at Nate's parents house and went to the cemetery to visit Gabe. I haven't been their in months-it's just too hard sometimes to stare at his stone. It just makes it all so final. These holidays are not easy-just trying to make it through these next few months.

    Work has been pretty stressful. I ended up going in after Gabe's ...
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