I have a job interview tommorow with the assisted living rehab home. I landed it being as I have experience with the "handicapped" that the average bear doesn't have. I don't like thinking of Jeremiah as handicapped, but to the real world, he was. I have new pictures in my album today. Am still working out the legalities for the car show. Have basically been trying to find a common ground with the rest of the world, but I have a feeling that I will always feel that there is a sort of barrier with the average person. People at work avoid the subject, my friends have basically been staying away..excapt Stephanie who is pregnant (I found out yesterday). That kind of hurts, but I cant begrudge others of their happiness. Not everyone shoudl have to see what I have, lived what Ive lived. He's only been gone 3 weeks, maybe I expect too much from myself. I have been keeping a journal, maybe someday I'll publish it.

I am new to this whole Blog thing, but I though a page in memory of Jeremiah would be nice. I am working on several things since he's been gone. making an album on CHERUBS, planning the Birthday car show, and getting myself all around organized and deciding to go back to a real job. Maybe I'll feel better once I start volunteering at the hospital. I need money, but I also have no desire to do anything but work at the hospital and do things related to Jeremiah.