I can't sleep. I just miss Madison. I feel like everyone thinks I should be over her death already. I feel guilty going on with life. I know I have to for McKenzie. She deserves the best Mom I can be. I quit taking my meds since they make me feel sick. I learned I need them to stay focused. I know take them during the day and they don't make me sick. I guess I should try to sleep because I have to get up and take care of Kenzie in thew morning.