I made the grave blanket for Aaron’s grave last night. I was up all night couldn’t sleep. I ended up taking the tree down. I feel making it from the trimmings of our tree is sharing our love. I am somewhere between giddy and depressed...crazy ...I think. This is so sad. But Praise God I have l a good support group. It is a blessing. This is my 4th Christmas without my son. Believe it or not, I believe the 1st Christmas was easier because I was still in shock. At least that 1st year if I wanted to talk about Aaron, people didn't seem uneasy. Now, they act like he never was, so it is up to me to keep my son's memory alive. Now it is sad that our society is so freaked out about death, the only way they know how to deal is by denial. It only hurts me even more. While the world is smiling and full of joy all I can do is miss my son. Kids shouldn't leave this earth before their parents, they just shouldn't. On the positive, I wish you all a very Merry Christmas. Please enjoy with those you love.