I miss you so much J. I ache, I hurt, my arms are empty and heart is broken.
You done us so so proud and all I want to do is make you proud to, I want you to be able to look down and be proud to call me your mummy.
My heart skips a beat whenever people mention your name I go to grasp my belly, in the spots you used to kick the most, before realising your no longer there, and that all of this actually did happen and that it's not just a dream.
I pick up you ashes Monday so finally having you home is some releaf.
I just want to know why you had to go know but we are still awaiting that phone call, and inquest date.
I just need to know we done everything we could.
I love you so so much baby. Can't describe how much I miss u and how much my heart aches for you xxxxxx