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Corin Nava

Your Baby Is 21 Months Old!----Ugh

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[b:a199c10ba3]Your Baby is 21 Months Old! [/b:a199c10ba3]

Yup-he would have been. But he died....so instead he will forever be 2 months old.

Today was just one of those rough days that pop up every now and then. At least they are a lot less frequent. It started with a dream: I had two beautiful kids. One little girl and one little boy. The little boy was about two, was running around and had a mouth full of teeth. I looked at him and realized that I didn't remember him getting that big-or having any teeth. I asked him when he had grown...and he replied that I had missed it all b/c I was paying all my attention to Ayla.

Well, I think that's a pretty easy dream to interpret. I feel that nagging guilt that I am moving on with my life. No big revelation-it just sucks.

Then I got the mail, and right on top was a pampers flyer for pull ups that read: Your baby is 21 months old! Most days I could just toss it aside... but today it felt like a slap in the face. Ugh-yep, just one of those days.
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  1. AmyMiles's Avatar
    Corin...I am thinking of you. I have had dreams about Faith being a toddler already. Gabe knows his mommy loves him. You don't have to visit his resting place to visit him either. You can talk to him anywhere.

    Take care
    Amy
  2. Alex and Ingrid Houchin's Avatar
    Hi Corin,

    I was thinking about you last night. I can only imagine how difficult it must be for you. As parents, no matter how much we try, the feeling of guilt will always remain somewhere in our subconscious and I think it will pop back when, like you said, we feel that things are settling down into a normal routine. You know what, I am sure that Gabriel is looking down on you and is immensely proud of his mum and her strenght. You have been through some extremely difficult moments and it's amazing to see how well you are doing with Ayla( beautiful name by the way) and also that you continue to support those in need. You are doing a brilliant job and you know what, Gabriel is being remembered every day through your kindness.
    We'll be thinking of you and I will light a candle in Gabriel's memory today.
    Hugs,

    Ingrid