TLCSHANNON

I GUESS I HAVE BEEN FEELING A LITTLE TO HAPPY AND BRAGGING A LITTLE TOO MUCH. THE BABY WAS DOING AWESOME FROM BIRTH, THEN LAST NIGHT HE WENT IN FOR SURGERY AND THEY CALLED TO TELL ME THEY WERE ON THE LAST STITCH OF HIS DIAPHRAGM WHICH WAS THORASCOPIC SURGERY, THEY SAID, IT WAS SMALLER THAN THEY THOUGHT AND HE HAD STOMACH,SPLEEN,SMALL AND LARGE INTESTINES UP IN HIS CHEST AND THERE WAS MORE LUNG THAN EXPECTED AND IT ACTUALLY GOT IN THE WAY, SO WE WENT IN TO SEE HIM AND WE WERE HAPPY AND ON TOP OF THE WORLD CALLING FAMILY AND FRIENDS, TELLING THEM HE DID GREAT THROUGH SURGERY, THEN WE GOT A PAGE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT AND THE SURGEON WANTED TO TALK TO US, I WAS SHAKING BAD WHEN I WALKED INTO HIS LITTLE ROOM AND THEY SAID THEY THINK THEY NICKED HIS LITTLE LEFT LUNG DURING SURGERY AND AIR WAS FILLING IN HIS CHEST AND IF THEY DIDNT PUT A TUBE IN SOON HE WOULD BE VERY SICK. SO I IMMEDIATELY STARTED CRYING AND PANICKED AND WAITED FOR THEM TO PLACE THE TUBE IN HIS SIDE. TODAY THEY SAID HE IS STABLE AND DOING GOOD, I SAT IN WITH THE DOCTORS WHILE THEY DID THEIR ROUNDS AND THEY SAID HE WAS A ROCKSTAR AND DOING WELL, I SAID I CANNOT CHEER UNTIL HE IS OFF THE VENTS AND COMING HOME WITH ME. THIS IS TOO MUCH FOR ANYONE TOO TAKE, BUT I SOMEHOW HAVE TO FIND A WAY TO GET THROUGH IT. I GOT TO HOLD HIM BEFORE SURGERY AND IT WAS SO SPECIAL, THEY SAID I CAN HOLD HIM MORE AS SOON AS HE STARTS WAKING UP. I AM TRYING TO STAY STRONG BUT I DONT THINK I AM DOING A GOOD JOB. IF THEY SAY MY SON IS DOING SO GREAT AND I AM SO LUCKY, THEN I CANNOT IMAGINE WHAT THE NOT SO LUCKY ARE DOING. I THINK I HAVE AGED 20 YEARS AND I AM SICK TO MY STOMACH. THERE IS ANOTHER LADY HERE WHO'S OLDER DAUGHTER HAS CDH AND SHE IS NOT DOING GOOD, I PRAY THINGS GET BETTER FOR THEM. SHE HEARD ME CRYING AND TRIED TO COMFORT ME IN HER OWN TIME OF NEED, WHAT A STRONG, BEAUTIFUL PERSON.