TLCSHANNON

I love to lay my face next Mekhaai's face at night while he is asleep and I can feel his sweet little breaths hitting me. It helps me sleep better knowing that he is right there alive and well. I think of all the parents that have lost their babies to CDH and I just feel this awe like im in the presence of something magical, my son, who i was told to have an abortion with to save myself the pain of losing him at or before birth is laying here next to me. How am I so lucky, why me and not them, its so amazing I cannot describe it to my friends and family, they would tune me out. The awesomeness of him surviving does not register in their minds. They have all moved on and I am still prengnant fighting for him to live in my mind but looking at him as he has survived.