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Bryson Alexander Dobbs

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It is so strange to walk by people who are
strangers. They see you and smile, you smile back. Some even comment on how beautiful you look, or " how far along are you?" Your tummy is
swelling because you are 6 months along. You can no longer hide it with clothes so you dont even
bother. You are pregnant. This is a happy time.
People have no idea what is really happenin
g. You can't tell by a look, or by just walking by them. Its deep within and unless you start sharing no one
will know. When is a good time to just open up to everyone? Is everyone privy to what is happening with your baby? I dread the day when I will people will know and they will glance your way, and you try to keep a positive look on your
face but their look tells all. Why haven't I told
my coworkers? Why not my friends? because I pray for a change. A change so drastic that I
dont need to say anything because its not an
issue anymore. Even though its just been 6 days since he has been diagnosed with CDH, it feels like a lifetime that we have been going through knowing that something hasn't been right. But I wake up every day hoping that today will be
the day that I could be the exception. That
when I walk into that ultrasound room that she will put that gooey gunk on me and say," hm...
that is interesting." It looks like everything looks normal. Your baby is perfectly healthy.
That my baby will be the exception. It is 1 out of 2000 babies so what are the chances that it
happens to mine? Oh the questions that I am
sure every mom asks. Why?
We have another ultrasound today and I am
praying for a good report. Even through this
time we are truly blessed because we have
gotten good news. He does have a 2 vessel
cord but that and the bowels in his chest are
the only physical abnormalities they detect.
We are thanking GOd for that.
So for our little one,we pray for you today and
every day. " Be still and Know, Be still and know that he is God. Rest quietly my child, rest in His loving
arms for He is watching over you my little one,
ever faithful ever true...so be still and know,
that He is God." Daddy and mommy and Landon love you!
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  1. JadeHunt's Avatar
    Julie,

    I couldn't read your post without many tears and much crying. My heart reaches out to you. Although I know exactly what it's like having a child with CDH, I cannot imagine the stress it puts on you and Bryson during such a critical time for both of you. Please know that I am here for you and that you are always in my heart, thoghts, and prayers... many, many prayers! I wish you luck today and send my love with you to this appointment. If I could wish one thing for you, it would be that your Bryson is the exception. Too many family are hurting because of this mysterious defect. The world needs to learn more and know to help save these chidlren and prevent this.

    Take care and keeo your chin up!
    Jade
  2. juliedobbs's Avatar
    Thank you Jade. I apprecaite your kindness and support. You are an amazing person, mom and woman! When I write my inner thoughts can just come out on paper. My mom even said that I hadn't shared that with anyone. she had no idea that is how I was feeling. I am blessed for this site where people are able to join together in prayer and friendship. I am praying for you daily that God will continue to give you peace and strength through these next days to come. I dont think it will ever be easy truthfully, but you might have better days and that is what you need to hold on to. Are you going to try again for another child? I would love to read your blog from the beginning of what was the story of when you found out. We did get good news, but alot of uncertainty. I am going to post soon. Thanks.
    Julie Ann
  3. mandymorena's Avatar
    Sorry to hear that you have received the news of you little man having CDH. You are strong, for GOD only gives you what you can handle and he knows you are capable of handling this. Yes the journey is tough. Some days seem longer than other but babies are stronger than anyone could imagine. You have been given a great advantage knowing about your son's CDH early on use it to your advantage. I was not that fortunate, but all turned out better than expected We are all here to support and pray for you. lots of hugs