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Bryson Alexander: Update

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It has been 4 days since my Bryson has been born. I never thought that the day would ever come. Patiently waiting for 9 months, anticipating his arrival and having no idea what the outcome would be as he entered the world.
God has orchestrated every event in his life so far from who his nurses are on his care to the doctors and surgeons and assistants who have been in his operating room, specifically hand picked by God to heal my son. I prayed for a miracle and even though I prayed that God would heal him, I also prayed for His will to be done. Of course I wanted him to be born without a diaghramatic hernia, or that God would take all his organs and put them in place. Of course I wanted him to have no complications and be just perfect. But, I have come to realize that God’s delay is not God’s denial. Just because he has chosen not to heal him now, or do it in the way that I see fit, doesn’t mean that He isn’t doing a miracle someway or somehow. I know that this little guy has a special purpose. I have seen it with my own eyes, the miracles. The miracle that he was crying when he was born, the fact that he is breathing intermittently on his own. The known fact that he doesn’t need to be on the heart and lung bypass machine.( ECMO). Did we know about the ET-Fistula? No, but did he soar through that surgery? Yes. Is he making progress daily? Yes. His oxygen levels are perfect and he is breathing room air. He isn’t jaundice, and his bilirubin levels are great. The tests they have ran have all turned out normal and all negative. His kidneys are working great. He is urinating and passing meconium. There are no brain bleeds and his brain is structurally normal. His heart is structurally normal and without any defects.
Every single minute that goes by he gains a little bit more strength. He is fearfully and wonderfully made.
As his mom I walk into the NICU and see him laying there connected to tubes and lying still. He is absolutely beautiful. A miracle in itself. My heart grieves and I want to just hold him. Even though I can’t, I know that God is. He loves him so much.

My dear Bryson,
You are here my little one.Your mommy and daddy have waited for you and we are so happy. We look at you and are so proud of you. You have made us the happiest parents in the world. I caught your daddy singing to you and it makes me smile. He loves you so much. You are the apple of his eye and the beat of my heart. I can’t tell you how much I need you to know how special you are. I don’t think you will ever comprehend what you went through these next few weeks, or even months. You won’t remember and as you grow up you probably will even take your life for granted. I ask that you don’t, not one breath. Every breath that you take now and take in the future were given by Him. Those are very special breaths. You are a miracle. You were created by God and he formed you in my womb. How he chose to form you and the way he chose to do so was His way. It may not have been the norm but he did it for a reason. Every intricate detail and every breath that you take now is showing me that God is a miracle worker. He is in the business of healing.
I love you so much. I just want to hold you in my arms, cuddle you and do mommy things that mommy’s should do. I know my time will come.
I know that I will be able to look past this day and these weeks to come and say, “ Wow, that was probably one of the hardest things I have ever had to go through, but look what God has done.” Your fire, your strength has become an inspiration to your father and I. You are determined to shock these nurses and doctors and even to shock me and your dad.
Your big brother wants you to come home and I can’t wait to take you there and for you to see your room and sleep in your own bed.
I know they have you sedated and you aren’t in any pain, at least that is what they keep saying, but if I could take this away from you and be in your place I would. My son, rest, get strong, grow and allow God to form you and mold you into a mighty work for His glory and honor. You are already a true testimony of His power.

We love you very much,
Your mommy and daddy and Big Brother Landon
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  1. JadeHunt's Avatar
    Julie,
    You are truly an inspiration! You, yourself are a miracle! Your words have helped heal my heart. Thank you for that! You and Bryson have given me hope and I cannot thank you enough!

    God Bless!
    Jade
  2. MariaFarnsworth's Avatar
    Julie,

    How eloquently and blessedly put ~ each & every word.

    May Our Heavenly Father continue to heal your precious miracle, Bryson.

    I cannot find the words to show my appreciation for your posting.

    Many Blessings To You All,

    Maria