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Rise Above It All

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Good Morning, My Gorgeous Liam,

I write this entry with many things on my mind. I am thinking of and praying for the many grieving families, and the families and children that are "in the thick of it" right now.

I should have known that Facebook was not a great place and I don't usually check it very often. Last night, for whatever reason, I did. I wish I hadn't. Some of the things people say just floor me. So insincere, so ignorant, so ill-timed, so over the top, so hurtful.

None of these people, nor their comments were meant to upset or hurt me, but they do. Certain people just don't realize what's going on around them, nor do they care.

Last night, Landon was playing in your room and rfound some of the scrapbook pages I have made for you. He took your diaper off of one of them and brought it to me. I said, "Yes that is Liam's diapie! Thank you, Landon!" I went into your room to put it back on the page, and decided to take all of the pages out and look at them- really look at them and let my tears fall and the feelings roll. I was overcome with so much, and through my tears all I could say was, "This just sucks so bad, Liam! Why did this happen, Buddy?" After spending some time with your scrapbook pages, I looked at you Baptism certificate, then your photo album. I just cried, and cried, and cried. Landon was watching Cars, so I was able to smile through my tears. I realized that you were giving me this time. I hadn't look at those items of yours since you passed- I just could bring myself to do it. For whatever reason, I was able to last night. Thank you, Liam! I needed to release my emotion and my tears that I had been choking back all day- I choke them back every day at work, and cry in my car on my way to pick up your brother. I really needed that time! How is it that you always know exactly what I need at exactly the right time? I suppose it's simple: you are always with me and keeping me safe! You are truly the most perfect and beautiful Angel! You are my MIRACLE MAN!

Liam, help me to find the strength today to rise above all of the ignorance and insensitivity of others. Give me the strength to forgive the ignorant and let it go. Liam, you are my strength, my heart, my Angel, and my source of hope and faith!

I love you TO THE MOON AND BACK!
Love Always,
Momma
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