JadeHunt

Good Morning, My Perfect Angel!

My heart is so heavy today. It is sad, scared, enlightened, peaceful, hopeful- a big smoothie of emotions!

It is filled with thoughts and prayers for our friends who are going through an extremely hard time. I have become great friends with this little Cherub's Mom and she and I have discovered with are alike in so many ways- some good and some bad. It is quite remarkable actually.

We e-mail regularly and give each other great support and love. Her son's journey is so similar to yours and it brings me back to the good days and the excrutiating days. I know exactly how she feels, and it is just unbareable! I am brought to tears by her e-mails because I wish she, her son, and their family would never have had to go through this journey and be on this path. I make sure to tell her that, even though it is painful to relive certain aspercts of our journey with you, Precious Liam, it helps me in many ways. She gives me much strength and helps me to hold on to my faith in God. Sustaining and strengthing my faith has been very difficult! There are many days when I would just rather give up. It would be so much easier to throw my hands and say, "I surrender! I'm done!" It would be the easy thing to do, but not the smart thing. I still dabble with that one most days, too! I probably always will. I bet most people dabble with that thought on a daily basis. Life throws so much at so many people, and 8 times out of 10, it's not fair!

You and I both know how much of a rollercoaster this journey is, and often times there is no difference between up and down- they become one in the same. Her thoughts, feelings, prayers, and hopes are all ones that I've had or said. Much like when you were ill, I just wish it would all go away and be better NOW. You know me- NOW, NOW, NOW! I've always been stuck in that mode of thinking- it's not always a good thing. I just want her Little Man to be healthy, happy and safe. There is no doubt that he is incredibly loved and is receiving outstanding care, just as you did! I LOVE your doctors, surgeons, and nurses! Each of them that had a hand in your care were hand-picked by God. They are Liam's Angels! Each of them holds a very special place in my heart, and that of every member of our family! I cherish and love them all so very much, as I know you do!

I miss you, Liam! So, so much! I wish we didn't have to walk this mile, but each day I see something- even a little something- get easier. Not better, but easier. I can handle easier!

Liam, I hope that you know how deeply loved and cherished you are! We are so proud that YOU are our son! You and Landon are the glue that holds this family together! You are our miracle! Our Gorgeous Bundle of Perfection!

I LOVE YOU TO THE MOON AND BACK!!!
All My Love, Hugs and Kisses,
Momma