JadeHunt

Good Morning, My Precious Boy!

Today has had a sluggish beginning. I'm having one of those days where I have no motivation or desire to do, well, anything. I can't get out of my own way. I'm at work, smiling and being chipper but inside I'm like, "Ahhhh! I just want to scream and cry!"

I am just heartbroken and devastated for Bryson's family. His Mommy is right that when he arrived, you took him by the hand and showed him around Heaven. I know you both are with God and our beloved loved ones. I know that you and Bryson are in loving and capable hands. Hands that wil hold you until we join you in Heaven. Although I would do ANYTHING to have you back, I know that you are in a better, safer place! God is our Savior and with Him all things are possible- I don't know if it would have ever have been possible for you to be healthy here with us. I'll never know that answer to that. When I think about it, it's not the answers that matter- it's the fact that you are healthy now! You are breathing, laughing and playing! I take great comfort in that! That's all I've ever wanted for you, Liam! God gave you that- and I bow to Him with gratitude!

Liam, I miss you so incredibly much! I find myself holding closely to Landon and your Daddy because I am so afraid something is going to happen to them. Anything could happen at any time! That scares me to death! I wish we could all- all 4 of us- live in a safety bubble! Wouldn't the world be miraculous if that was possible?! But it's not, and I am struggling with seeing the happiness is life, and not living in fear that I will be alone. I'm not afraid of dying because I know I will receive the ultimate gift when I get to Heaven- YOU! And I know I'm going to Heaven because I've accepted God as my Savior and caretaker. I know I am one of His children. The thing that scares me most about dying is dying alone. I pray and ask God to keep us safe, healthy, and in His loving arms. I pray for Him to guide us on our journey to happiness, peace and understanding. I pray that if He takes any of the three of us, that He take me first! I cannot fathom what I would do without your Daddy and/or Landon. I don't even what to imagine that!

Liam, pray with me today! Hold me close, just as God holds us both. Help me to be strong, courageous, compassionate, patient and kind. Help me to be everything that YOU are- which is everything I want to be! I admire you and look up to you so much, Peanut!

WE LOVE YOU, LIAM ANTHONY HUNT WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL! YOU ARE OUR MIRACLE! WE ARE SO PROUD OF YOU AND THAT GOD CHOSE US TO BE YOUR PARENTS AND SIBLING! IT IS TRULY AN HONOR!

All My Love For All Eternity,
Momma