Empty
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, 02-07-2012 at 09:48 AM (2340 Views)
Good Morning, My Little One,
Today has already been an extremely emotional day. So many thoughts and fears are running through my mind and I am struggling to not drown myself in them. The root of it all is how much I miss you, Liam Anthony! There are days when nothing makes sense and I can barely put one foot in front of the other. Today is one of those days that I just want to crawl into a deep, dark hole and stay there. I'm emotionally unstable and unpredictable, I'm shaky and rotate from being freezing cold to sweating. Days like this drag on forever, and I wonder if they will ever cease, or at least become few and far between. Will I ever be really happy again? There are many things I'm happy about. I smile and laugh and enjoy being around people, but when I go to bed at night, I still feel so empty inside. Like I'm starving to death. I really want nothing more than to lay down and go to sleep for a while. I'm exhausted- in every sense of the word! I can't even breathe...
Liam, I need your strength and courage. I need you to wrap your precious arms around me and hold me tighter today. Bring me peace and understanding. Tell God that I need his mercy and grace as well.
I miss you more than I could ever express. There is no way to define how much I miss you. It's immeasurable...
God Bless You, Liam Anthony Hunt! I love you with ALL my heart and soul- to the moon and back!!!!
All My Love Forever,
Momma