Danielle Howard

It has been almost 2 weeks since we put Sienna in her mausoleum drawer. it was an extremely emotionally difficult day but with it has come unexpected peace in my heart. I know she is where she needs to be and I'm surprised at how I am doing. I actually feel good. They allowed me to place her in the crypt instead of taking her from me. Usually they don't allow family members back there while they are sealing up the crypt, but they allowed me and my husband to lay her in there and place the letters we wrote to her next to her urn. We stood there as they sealed up the tomb and placed the new nameplate on that read " Our Angel, Sienna Marie Howard, December 15th, 2011" I am so thankful to my grandparents and all they did for her. My gram cried at the funeral and my husband lost it when he placed the letters in. It was definately the heartbreaking day that I knew it would be, but i expected these weeks after to be horrible and they haven't. I stopped to see her last week and cried a little in front of her drawer, it was early and no one was there so i played her that song that i blogged about in the last blog, since i have it on my phone. it was so quiet in there and then playing that song for her and being there with her just me and her, it felt nice. It felt like she is finally where she needs to be. I would have never been able to move on without her being laid to rest. Although i will always remember my guardian angel, my heart has peace now, something i thought i would never be able to find. I know my little Sienna is helping piece my heart back together.