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With the Holiday season here

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BeckyLewis
, 12-03-2012 at 08:39 PM (2722 Views)
With the Holiday season in full swing, I find my self feeling more tearful then ever. It has been almost three months since Lucas came into our lives and left us three short days later. I know i must go on for my other children and celebrate christmas as we do every year. But for me celebrating anything is the last thing i want to do. We did decide to have 2 trees this year a little table top tree for Lucas as well as our usual big family tree. The little tree honoring Little Lucas has blue lights,little teddy bears in blue sweaters, mini blue and silver balls, a tiny picture of him, his little cherub wings, a tiny white CDH awareness pin hanging from a red ribbon and a angel tree topper. It is truly beautiful. I find myself sitting at night after everyone has gone to bed and the house is quiet, just looking at his glowing tree for hours. I feel that even though Lucas will never spend a christmas in this house with us, his memory will always be with us for christmas through his own tree.
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  1. JessicaSindoni's Avatar
    oh Becky! I'm sorry! i couldn't imagine, I understand partly how hard it is. My daughter is a survivor with daily struggles CDH has changed our lives in sooo many ways. Your little guy will be in your home for Christmas I'm sure, you may not see him but he'll forever be there. I hope you have the best Christmas possible, and remember its ok to cry
  2. Dalila Sarabia's Avatar
    Hi Becky, im knew to this site and i read ur blog... it touched my heart in many ways.... ur baby will b and always be with you guys... I also lost my baby boy 6 yrs ago at birth to cdh... and every yr on his birthday we go to the cementary and celebrate like he was here with us, with candy, cake, ect. it has helped me heal through the years. I will keep your family in my thoughts and prayers!
  3. MariaFarnsworth's Avatar
    Becky,

    My heart goes out to you so much. Our daughter was where you are last Christmas. It broke my heart watching her struggle to remain cheerful for their 3 year old. As a parent, I have never felt so helpless. While I will not tell you that it will get easier, the Lord does provide for certain events to be bearable. We celebrate Liam every day and will continue to do so. A "new normal" will come to you and your family. It all takes time. May God surround you and your family with his loving arms providing peace, hope and comfort. I send healing prayers to you. God Bless You and Your Family.

    Maria
    Nonna to Angel CHERUB Liam ("The Lion") Anthony Hunt