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MandyWalker
, 03-09-2013 at 12:35 PM (2731 Views)
February 15 was suppose to be the best day of my life but instead it was the worst. My son was born at 1:03am and passed about 9 hours later. I was able to get out of the hospital in time to hold him and say goodbye. My sweet angle passed in my arms after his father and I told him it was ok he didn't need to be in pain. I feel like he waited for me to get to Children's before he let go.
Since his passing I have found it hard to show the love and attention my other son needs and deserves. I feel detached from life my emotions just go between anger and sadness. I was producing milk and I couldn't stop the emptiness inside from consuming me. I have my husband whom is great support but he is grieving too and I don't want him to have to stop his grief to comfort me. I am lost and hopeless for the future.
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  1. Chris and TracyMeats's Avatar
    (((HUGS)))....we are always here for you if you need to talk. We do have oncall support for our grieving families too, if you want me to put you in contact with another mom....sometimes just talking to somebody who understands helps.
  2. MariaFarnsworth's Avatar
    My heart is breaking for you and your family. Having watched our daughter and son in-law go through this process is the most gut-wrenching experience. Please know that CHERUBS has some amazing people. Tap into this resource. They are fabulous.

    Sending healing prayers and thoughts from Vermont.

    Maria Farnsworth
    Nonna to Angel CHERUB Liam ("The Lion") Anthony Hunt
  3. JessicaSindoni's Avatar
    My heart is with you, thought I never lost a child, I came close. I couldnt imagine the pain you are feeling. Remember that everything you feel is not wrong. Its normal to feel hurt, saddness, anger any every other feeling you can endure. Again I cant exactly relate but I am willing to talk if you need. <3 <3 Hope the best for you and your family during this time!