Baby Kanarra

Finding out that my baby is going to born with cdh has been the scariest thing ever. I can't sleep at night because all I can think about the what ifs. Every time I feel my baby kick all I think is can you please stay in forever so I can protect you. I have four older children 3 girls and 1 boy. And its so hard to know that I'm going to be away from them for pretty much the whole summer. I'm basically trying to do everything on my own. And this has been one of the hardest things I have ever been threw. I wish there was someone to give me advice on how to be the best mother to all five of my children and how to deal with all the emotions that I am feeling. I pretty new to this site so I am learning slowly but surely.