Bryson Alexander Dobbs
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, 08-23-2011 at 10:22 AM (3367 Views)
It is so strange to walk by people who are
strangers. They see you and smile, you smile back. Some even comment on how beautiful you look, or " how far along are you?" Your tummy is
swelling because you are 6 months along. You can no longer hide it with clothes so you dont even
bother. You are pregnant. This is a happy time.
People have no idea what is really happenin
g. You can't tell by a look, or by just walking by them. Its deep within and unless you start sharing no one
will know. When is a good time to just open up to everyone? Is everyone privy to what is happening with your baby? I dread the day when I will people will know and they will glance your way, and you try to keep a positive look on your
face but their look tells all. Why haven't I told
my coworkers? Why not my friends? because I pray for a change. A change so drastic that I
dont need to say anything because its not an
issue anymore. Even though its just been 6 days since he has been diagnosed with CDH, it feels like a lifetime that we have been going through knowing that something hasn't been right. But I wake up every day hoping that today will be
the day that I could be the exception. That
when I walk into that ultrasound room that she will put that gooey gunk on me and say," hm...
that is interesting." It looks like everything looks normal. Your baby is perfectly healthy.
That my baby will be the exception. It is 1 out of 2000 babies so what are the chances that it
happens to mine? Oh the questions that I am
sure every mom asks. Why?
We have another ultrasound today and I am
praying for a good report. Even through this
time we are truly blessed because we have
gotten good news. He does have a 2 vessel
cord but that and the bowels in his chest are
the only physical abnormalities they detect.
We are thanking GOd for that.
So for our little one,we pray for you today and
every day. " Be still and Know, Be still and know that he is God. Rest quietly my child, rest in His loving
arms for He is watching over you my little one,
ever faithful ever true...so be still and know,
that He is God." Daddy and mommy and Landon love you!