How should I take that?
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, 03-01-2013 at 02:13 PM (2543 Views)
So last night, I mentioned to Josh that he'd seemed a bit withdrawn lately. I mean he didn't even seem happy with the news the doctor gave the other day. I thought he was happy, just had other things on his mind. Well last night he told me that he thought I had lulled myself into a false sense of peace thinking that somehow everything would be okay, that she would be okay. And he just was preparing himself for the worst so it wouldn't be a shock. And he is now more worried about how I will react in the worst case just because of this "false sense of peace". It really bothered me, one that he is so pessimistic still about her outcome, and two now I wonder what if I am lulled into a false sense of peace and things do turn out for the worst? So that one little piece of conversation has really shaken my peace. I know that he can't know or feel the things I do, but what if he is right? This is the first time we've ever been so completely opposite in feeling. I trust my heart, but I miss him being there with me.