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Thank you so much everyone for your kind words, love and support. Yesterday started out rough as it always does. Every year I cannot erase the memory of Amanda looking me in the eye as she took her last breath @ 0701 am in the living room, what seemed like CPR forever then the chaos of police and medical personnel that followed. I remember as EMS was lining her up and intubating her telling her to keep going. I knew she was without oxygen way too long and I could not bear the thought of her ...
Today was so strange. I woke up this morning @ 0500 as usual. My door was open allowing the very cool crisp fall air in. Out of nowhere I suddenly felt so different. All day I could not shake the feeling of wanting to crawl out of my skin. I kept telling myself oh it must be there are 5 extra family members in my house and I feel crowded, or maybe work is just catching up to me. Then as I sat on my deck this afternoon a gust of wind blew and that same old familiar feeling finally made sense. ...
[size=18:8931d643c5][color=violet:8931d643c5]"It is better to light a candle, than to complain about darkness".[/color:8931d643c5][/size:8931d643c5] R. Herzog