speechless, hearthbroken and scared!
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, 08-30-2011 at 09:57 AM (1718 Views)
When i was told my baby had CDH, i was speechless! I had a million and one questions just couldnt put them in words. I couldnt do anything let alone talk back to the doctor while he asked questions, I just knew nothing anyone says could make me feel any better, nothing anyone did could make me feel less sad. They knew silence was the best way they can help me. So when i drove myself home I couldnt speak to my babys father we were both hearthbroken. That was the only time he never tried to make me feel better, because he couldnt his first child that he is so excited for needs his help and he cant help. He can only stand back, watch and prey! Now that I have a number of doctors calling for appiontments all my family, friends and co-workers are nervous and scared to ask for a update, which i would be too. Im scared. . . . Im scared I wont be albe to hold her, see her grow, go to school, see her first steps, and many more! My baby and two sons are my world, Im lost without them. My boys are to young to tell them their sister is very sensitive, so till they understand all they know there sister is almost home. there ready to play and feed her. To all that, Im speechless, hearthbroken and scared!