pearlmae

Tomorrow will be 9 years since you left. Time does not make it easier, even though people say this is the way. I imagine what you would look like, our conversations, what school would be like for you. I question things I never thought of before, like life after death. Will you be there? I know I made the best decision for you, but at the same time, was it? if you had stayed, what would your life have been like. And why did this happen to you? What did you do to deserve this?
9years later and my heart aches like the day the Doctor told me something was wrong. So many test! One of those Doctors had to have made a mistake, this couldnt be happening to you. Until the one Doctor sat me down and told me the facts. Things were bad. I knew I couldnt let you suffer. My heart hurts. I have two beautiful boys and I know they would not be possible without you. I know I could have never expierenced true love without you. You have forever changed my life with your sacrifice and for that I thank you. I loved you the moment I knew you were there and I will love you always, my little Georgia peach. 9-11-02