Ridley Ellis Nunn
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, 02-24-2012 at 08:08 PM (4700 Views)
I am posting this with a heavy heart. Ridley passed away last night, but I just needed to say how proud I am. He, like all cherubs fought for every second that he had here.
There were complications from ecmo, and he had to come off it, and he was just too sick for the oscillator vent. We had to decide to push forward and try that or let him go. We made the decision to let him go and rest. He had multiple brain bleeds that caused too much damage, and we knew, because the day before they did a trial off ecmo, that he wouldn't survive without it.
I think we are still in shock, I don't know what I am doing half the time. I knew this was possible, especially after his birth, they didn't think he would even get to ACH from UAMS. I just couldn't accept that or really think about this, because I couldn't function when I did, and I had to be there for him.
I know that he isn't in pain anymore, there is no more struggle. I would have taken it all for him if I could have, but I do find comfort that in making the decision to let him rest, we were able to take away all of the discomforts he felt, even if it was just a few days less.
He was in a pod with 2 other cherubs. We have been praying for them, and I would like to ask for prayers for Allie and Angel.
He was 17 days old, and for 17 wonderful days I got to experience the miracle that he was. I will love him always, and miss him every second and carry him in my heart forever....