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Missing Aaron

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I made the grave blanket for Aaron’s grave last night. I was up all night couldn’t sleep. I ended up taking the tree down. I feel making it from the trimmings of our tree is sharing our love. I am somewhere between giddy and depressed...crazy ...I think. This is so sad. But Praise God I have l a good support group. It is a blessing. This is my 4th Christmas without my son. Believe it or not, I believe the 1st Christmas was easier because I was still in shock. At least that 1st year if I wanted to talk about Aaron, people didn't seem uneasy. Now, they act like he never was, so it is up to me to keep my son's memory alive. Now it is sad that our society is so freaked out about death, the only way they know how to deal is by denial. It only hurts me even more. While the world is smiling and full of joy all I can do is miss my son. Kids shouldn't leave this earth before their parents, they just shouldn't. On the positive, I wish you all a very Merry Christmas. Please enjoy with those you love.
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  1. JadeHunt's Avatar
    Beth,

    Yesterday was my first Christmas without my Precious Son, Liam. I believe I am still in shock- and I don't know if that feeling will ever cease. I simply cannot believe this has happened to my son, my family and I. You are right in that, parents are not supposed to leave this Earth before their parents. It simply doesn't make sense. That's not how it's supposed to be. I am thinking of you and holding you in my heart and prayers during this difficult time. From a mother to another mother, I know how hard this is- though our circumstances may be a bit different, at times that walk is just the same. My heart reaches out to you!

    God Bless You! Please never hesitate to contact me. I have been finding comfort in communicating with those who can relate to my loss.

    Take care and be well,
    Jade