JadeHunt

Good Afternoon, My Gorgeous, Liam!

I have been doing a lot of internal soul searching and talking with just a couple of people. I won't dwell on my milions of thoughts, fears, and questions, but what I've surmised from everything is that I believe with all of my being that you would not want me to dwell and turn myself inside out with the shoulda, coulda, woulda's and what if's. I know that you want us to believe that God had a plan from the very beginning and that God would never want you to be in pain or suffer. You are and always have been in his loving and tender arms and he has and will continue to protect you and keep you safe from all harm! I know that you are watching over all of us and telling us that it's ok to be happy and to find joy in life again! I know what you and God are trying to tell me and show me, I just have to choose to listen and see.

I am driven to put more pieces of our puzzle together and aswer some of my questions. I know that it is impossible to answer all of my questions. One day, I will have all of the answers, but by the time I have them , they won't matter because you will be in my arms and we will be together for all eternity!

I just want to answer some questions and close this chapter of our journey. I want us all to begin to grieve and heal. I know that we will never be whole again, but we can at least come together as a family and find understanding and peace.

There is part of me that wants to find someone to be mad at, but I can't spend the rest of my life doing that. Everyone did everything they could to help you and heal you. Not knowing about your CDH posed a huge obstacle to overcome. Having known about your CDH, maybe things would have been different, but as a phenomenal friend just recently said, God had your path and destiny chosen even before your birth. I have to have faith in God and know that calling you Home was the best choice for you. I would never want you to spend your life struggling, fighting, and not being able to do things that your big brother can do. I can't justify that as fair! I only ever want was BEST for you and Landon!

I miss you, Liam Anthony Hunt and I am so incredibly proud of you! You and Landon make this world a much better place! Liam, you continue to touch loves and inspire all of us who surround you! You are an Amazing Child and a Gorgeous Angel!

All My Love Forever and Ever,
Momma