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My ill angel Javin

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Thanks for you support. *My name is Jasmine I am 16 years old. *My plans were never to get pregnant so early but it happened. *My baby was diagnosed with CDH in my first trimester. *I was given the opportunity to terminate my pregnancy very early on as they thought at that point he would not make it, I held on to faith that everything would be ok so I left it in god's hands. *As my pregnancy went on the prognosis was looking better and better, my due date was April 10, 2012. *He was growing and thriving. *The medical staff at Children's Hospital of Philadelphia gave me high hopes. *The closer I got the more excited I got. *My family was very supportive of me, they stood by me the entire time. *I was pretty much assured that he was going to make it, we even had a baby shower. *

One of my last appointments i was told that i would be induced on April 3, 2010. *I started to feel weird pains April 1st. *My baby was born on April 2nd at 2:38 am weighing 6lbs 15oz 19 inches. *He was taken away to be cleaned up and ready for surgery right away. *20 minutes later the doctor comes back in the room with a distraught look on her face, I knew then something was seriously wrong. *She said "We are not sure if he is going to make it, he is not responding to nothing we are doing. *We will try again". I remember thinking to myself, "The doctors said he will ok, my baby is going to be ok". *Once they came back in to report that he was still not responding, I knew my baby Javin Mathew Afre would never have a chance to call me Mommy or even look into his mother's eyes. *They kept him alive long enough to be baptized and held by me and his daddy. *Once the removed the tube he was gone forever. *I held my baby in my arms as he took his last breath. *I kept him with me for the entire time I was in the hospital. *My baby boy never had a chance. *I think to myself "Why me lord? Why Javin?" 1 in 2500 babies are born with this birth defect but why did god chose my baby. *
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  1. Chris and TracyMeats's Avatar
    (((HUGS))) Jasmine...I am so sorry your little Javin left this earth to soon. My heart goes out to you. You gave him a chance at life and he was blessed to have a mom that would do that for him. Never, never blame yourself for what has happened to your son, for the cause of CDH is not known. We are here for you. (((HUGS))).
  2. JasmineD's Avatar
    Yea I never imagined I would be the one who's lil boy got tooken for them within a matter of secs he was gone ugh I'm going through a lot I wish god wouldn't have picked my boy but he did an is now in a better place MY LIL ANGEL JAVIN IS WATCHING OVER HIS MOMMY

    TEAM MOMMY LOVES JAVIN <3
  3. Heidi Isbell's Avatar
    Im so sorry girl and u being so young and so strong is evening harder to read ur story but one thing ur angel knows is that u never gave up on him no matter what could of happened...i am sorry for ur lost but there seems to never have the answers us moms wish we could have but if u need to support i would love to help u thru it cause im still trying to cope with my son and he is okay but u never know when something could go wrong!!!
  4. MariaFarnsworth's Avatar
    Jasmine,

    My heart just breaks for you. I watched our daughter & son in-law have to make such hard decisions with their Liam, having to let him go. I cannot imagine your pain or feelings of loss.

    Please know that Angels are hand-picked and God's plan we are not privy to. I firmly believe that our Lord has a need for our strong little CHERUBS. Please remember the ultimate glory will the day you are reunited with your precious, Javin.

    May God lift you up providing you peace, comfort & solace.

    God Bless You Always,

    Maria
    Nonna to Angel CHERUB Liam ("The Lion") Anthony Hunt