My ill angel Javin
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, 05-06-2012 at 04:13 PM (3281 Views)
Thanks for you support. *My name is Jasmine I am 16 years old. *My plans were never to get pregnant so early but it happened. *My baby was diagnosed with CDH in my first trimester. *I was given the opportunity to terminate my pregnancy very early on as they thought at that point he would not make it, I held on to faith that everything would be ok so I left it in god's hands. *As my pregnancy went on the prognosis was looking better and better, my due date was April 10, 2012. *He was growing and thriving. *The medical staff at Children's Hospital of Philadelphia gave me high hopes. *The closer I got the more excited I got. *My family was very supportive of me, they stood by me the entire time. *I was pretty much assured that he was going to make it, we even had a baby shower. *
One of my last appointments i was told that i would be induced on April 3, 2010. *I started to feel weird pains April 1st. *My baby was born on April 2nd at 2:38 am weighing 6lbs 15oz 19 inches. *He was taken away to be cleaned up and ready for surgery right away. *20 minutes later the doctor comes back in the room with a distraught look on her face, I knew then something was seriously wrong. *She said "We are not sure if he is going to make it, he is not responding to nothing we are doing. *We will try again". I remember thinking to myself, "The doctors said he will ok, my baby is going to be ok". *Once they came back in to report that he was still not responding, I knew my baby Javin Mathew Afre would never have a chance to call me Mommy or even look into his mother's eyes. *They kept him alive long enough to be baptized and held by me and his daddy. *Once the removed the tube he was gone forever. *I held my baby in my arms as he took his last breath. *I kept him with me for the entire time I was in the hospital. *My baby boy never had a chance. *I think to myself "Why me lord? Why Javin?" 1 in 2500 babies are born with this birth defect but why did god chose my baby. *