Lose
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, 03-09-2013 at 12:35 PM (7623 Views)
February 15 was suppose to be the best day of my life but instead it was the worst. My son was born at 1:03am and passed about 9 hours later. I was able to get out of the hospital in time to hold him and say goodbye. My sweet angle passed in my arms after his father and I told him it was ok he didn't need to be in pain. I feel like he waited for me to get to Children's before he let go.
Since his passing I have found it hard to show the love and attention my other son needs and deserves. I feel detached from life my emotions just go between anger and sadness. I was producing milk and I couldn't stop the emptiness inside from consuming me. I have my husband whom is great support but he is grieving too and I don't want him to have to stop his grief to comfort me. I am lost and hopeless for the future.